I am really having a hard time even talking to you these days...It's over, you don't owe me any explaination about where you go or what you do or if that *bitch* is calling you trying to hook up...What a cow. You don't want to hear about how I feel about all this, and to be quite honest, I"m not really interested in making polite conversation...I feel like punishing you and being mean to you and making you feel as bad as I do about this. I don't like the way I'm being, and yet I feel powerless to be any other way. I wish I didn't have to see you in my house all the time, and yet when you're finally gone I'll sit in your empty room and cry, and hope that you'll come to regret your decision and realize what a fool you are to dump me.

My very worst self is right out there at the moment. I don't like who I am when I think about you or talk about you or write about you...I am SO ready to move on!!! Now all I have to do is become *able* to move on and I'll be fine.

God, please give me the willingness to let go with love. I'm willing to be willing.

I don't like you very much these days. I think you are selfish and immature and talk a lot about things you'll never really do. I wish I could "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" about you. I'm jealous and petty and angry, and I want my old self back, no, I want my new self to happen.