a coworker commented yesterday how my current girlfriend looks a lot like my ex-wife... that really bothered me... so last night i went looking thru my photos and tried to compare them visually but couldn't. i think my eyes were colored by my memories. a lot of the hurt was gone but i really wanted to know how some of them were doing, to know if they were okay, happy, healthy and all that. one of them even moved to california (from TN) and if she's listening i really wonder how the little one's are and if she's ever coming back for a visit.

another is right where she was years ago when we dated, and i think hasn't changed (emotionally) a bit.

last i heard the other, she moved (temporarily i hope) to south korea. she's coming back in may i think; i hope. i do miss her.

the next girl probably moved back to KY, but if she's listening... i want to make babies darling.

after that, the next one, she can stay where ever she's at. i'm not ready to be friends with her ever.

and then after all that, i wonder what it says about me that i haven't acknowledge, what it means to want to see them again, why i wish some happy, some back, and some to stay away?