I hate you, why did you leave and then call me and tell me thing weren't working out. Then you came to get your badge because you had to work, then you said you'd be back today, because you fucked up and you want to come home. Now here it is today and im waiting on your ass. I haven't talked to you sence 4 this morning and then you were like well ive been working alot of overtime since ive been gone, just trying to clear your already aired out head I guess, you said you weren't sure when you were getting off work. YOU FUCKING StuPID TRAMP! !!!!!!!!. I know u usually get off work at 8 now it's 1:21 and im still waiting like a fucking ass. Why is it that you must lie, why not just leave me the fuck alone. Come get your shit and leave so I can go on with my already completely meaningless life. It seems like you go out of your way to make me feel like a complete ass, well, you REALLY needn't bother because I already feel like an ass most of the time any fucking way. I feel like an ass because I let go of someone else to be with you. And if you all you wanted to do was play games you could have left me in the miserable relationship that I was in. I would have found some kind of way to be happy there. You could have just stayed my friend. You weren't really that much of a friend anyway because you wanted me. So here I am sitting here in front of the same computer that you say I always run away to when im pissed of with you. The same computer and the same dog that you say I when I upset I always hold. He's still here and so is this damn computer and you're not. My fucking x-girlfriend keeps calling me. And she is SO fucking optimistic and I just want to fucking shoot her (or myself). She is HAPPY in her damn relationship and so willing to be my fucking shoulder to cry on. But I dont want to cry on her fucking shoulder, I just want to sit here and cry in the damn dark of this horrible ass apartment and stare at the fucking dent in the bed where you used to lay until I get over you. Which wont be soon because you asked me to marry you. I know relationships have problems and shit but you didn't even try to make it work. YOU JUST LEFT!!!!!!!. You deserted me. Now im alone. Completely and now im starting to cry and i just want to die, i swear. I want you to hurt, like im hurting i want you to miss me, like im sitting here missing you. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU.. How could you leave me like this. You were my fucking everything. I just knew we were going to be together forever. I strated making plans to have kids and stop smoking and everything... now i smoke 3 packs a fucking day just trying to forget about you. I have never done anything to you for you to run away like this. And never come back, why give me hope that you want to reconcile if you dont really want to, so here I am just sitting here. I have two jobs that I start tomorrow. I have to wash clothes, and I dont even want to fucking move. The same dog that you hate so fucking much loves you to death and every since you fucking he just sits at the damn door waiting for you to walk in it. But you dont and he's so fucking depressed and he barely eats, he doesn't want his toys he doesn't want to go outside he just completely damn depressed. Just like me. I hate you...... I hate you so much right now..... I hate you so much that I just want you to come back home......