The letter:
I try to forget what you said, and i want to hate you for what you did. In everything i do i see you, i and i find myself too hoplessly in love with you even now. I cant forget, only forgive. You said you didnt even know me after four years, and that the man you met yesterday is so much better. Ive tried to stop you, i wont anymore its your life and i only want you to be happy... i never had much of a reason to speak my mind but now i find that i should tell you that this is killing me. That hurt, the chaos you've thrown me into, i feel used and that seems to be the legacy you've left me.
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I never got over it, i still have nightmares, i cant forget, but i can in a way live for myself nomatter how much i want to give up for how weak which is possibly the greatest thing anyone left me. I still love her...