i served as the poster boy for a talk our local SNAP (www.snapnetwork.org) gave at a big baptist church here knox-vegas. told my story; told everything. almost. told them how the girl i thought i married told me it would be easier for her if i didn't come home anymore while i was still in the hospital's treatment program for depression and suicidal ideation. its a big church, lots of people (baptist, east tennessee? go figure). lots of families. lots of men and women with wedding rings. lots of kids with brothers and sisters. and then there was me and my daughter. no wedding ring, no siblings. just us.

i'm lonely.