Because I don't want to be. Because it leaves me vulnerable and because it is a constant reminder of a for real right in your face love that I cannot have. Because every time I look at you I will just die inside. Because I have all this love to give, and you'll actually take it. Because right now I just need to be left the fuck alone. I don't want a shoulder to cry on - I don't want your wise and cautious understandings dammit, and I don't want your patronizing love. I want to hurt like hell and then let the fuck go!

I don't need help through it - I need help bottling this up, shutting it down and building walls and setting up self-defense mechanisms. Fuckin A man I need help putting out this fire inside of me that burnsburnsburns and aches and aches. So keep your fucking sympathy, I got myself here and I'll get myself out all by my damned Self - so take all of your fucking bliss and get the fuck out of my life.