i'm assuming you've all seen "team america:world police" ?

well i don't know how to feel about feeling lonely.

its good that my strings aren't strung around someone else's control

its bad because i miss the drugged, fuzzy headed feeling of being smitten.

sometimes i feel guilty with my 'friend(s)' because i don't give them that total freaked out do-anything for pleasing them sort of affection.

i like my friends, i'm just not in love with any of them. i miss being in love. i miss jennifer, i miss kelly, i miss danielle, i miss the 2nd jennifer, i miss the 3rd jennifer, i miss the 2nd danielle, i miss the girls i fell in love with that i didn't even know, i miss sarah, i miss kim, i miss michelle, i even miss nikki and also niki. i miss who i thought erika was.i miss christine. i miss the jennifer i knew before i started counting jennifers. i miss rhonda. i miss hilda.

i miss love, trust, company, laughing, spooning, making dinner together, showering together, sleeping (really, just sleeping) together, picking out a movie together, shopping together.

i miss being innocent, being hopeful, having faith in god and people.

hello love, i'm here, where are you?