because you don't know how.
you are (still) to filled with hostility, anger and jealousy to allow an actual friendship.
i think you concocted this latest drama so that you could tell me of your impending/potential date (that you haven't decided whether or not you'll go thru with) and you know that would end our status of having intimate contact and you freaked out.
you are looking for lies that don't exhist and you hold onto the one time and don't even see that by posting the screen shot of my email, you blatently admit that you hacked my email. yes, i admit that i had a brief flirtation with the guy but it was during one of the billion times that you broke up with me.
it's not like I went drinking with some random dude after we had a fight (and weren't broken up &after i promised that i wasn't going to drink anymore )and ended up "spending the night on his couch". and it's not like the next day i promised not to drink again &the following night decided to go to a bar and that YOU were the only one who had a problem with my drinking so i broke it off for good.
you do what you need to so you can hate/blame me.
i see how it works.
no, we can't be friends.
you are (still) to filled with hostility, anger and jealousy to allow an actual friendship.
i think you concocted this latest drama so that you could tell me of your impending/potential date (that you haven't decided whether or not you'll go thru with) and you know that would end our status of having intimate contact and you freaked out.
you are looking for lies that don't exhist and you hold onto the one time and don't even see that by posting the screen shot of my email, you blatently admit that you hacked my email. yes, i admit that i had a brief flirtation with the guy but it was during one of the billion times that you broke up with me.
it's not like I went drinking with some random dude after we had a fight (and weren't broken up &after i promised that i wasn't going to drink anymore )and ended up "spending the night on his couch". and it's not like the next day i promised not to drink again &the following night decided to go to a bar and that YOU were the only one who had a problem with my drinking so i broke it off for good.
you do what you need to so you can hate/blame me.
i see how it works.
no, we can't be friends.
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Re: why we can't be friends
Mon, August 8, 2005 - 9:48 AMBecause it hurts too much. And had we been true friends to begin with, we would probably still be lovers, too.
You call being a friend "Someone you can call if your car won't start."
I call that "AAA".
You lied.
Did I ever really even know you?
Anyway, we're still too hot for each other. If I see you. we'll have sex.
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Re: why we can't be friends
Mon, August 8, 2005 - 11:14 AMBecause you are too selfish and immature to be a real friend to anyone. You are dating one of the people who was my friend, someone I had invited into my home, someone who had been through the pain of our brakeup. Both of you are unable to be truthful.
She will fuck anyone, and you not only have a car, you are probably the only person on the planet that thinks the fact that she has a baby makes her more attractive. Don't think for a moment that it has escaped her that you are financially provided for...even if you never get a real job your rent will always be paid. Your parents will pay for it when she gets knocked up. You are a good opportunity for a girl who has no other prospects.
You are still not a real grownup, and you're totally selfish.
That's why WE can't be friends.
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Re: why we can't be friends
Tue, August 9, 2005 - 2:35 PMbecause you know the affection is more precious to me than air and blood. you know that to deny my one vice, is to control me. you know that nothing else controls me but this, and you use it. how does it feel to hold a beating heart in your hand? i wonder what they go for on ebay? -
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Re: why we can't be friends
Tue, August 9, 2005 - 5:15 PMarg.
paul, get out of my head.
this guy is my weakness, my usual practical and sensible self were completely thrown out the window for the chemical attraction we shared and despite the bad overwhelming the good by an enormous margin, if he had not broken up with me, i would be wallowing in the madness still. -
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Re: why we can't be friends
Wed, August 10, 2005 - 8:36 PMtis you, tis you.
my weakness is love. i can't discern between me loving someone and someone loving me. i can't tell the difference between someone needing me for their use, and me needing them for my soul. i had a horrendous introduction to the matter of love, respect, sex, and physical affection. when there is one, i must include the others; individually, i, and they, are not distinguishable. i fall in love so often, you would expect me to be more accustomed to being broken hearted, but, like a baby, each one is unique and fresh, and new and joyous and painful and piercing...
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Re: why we can't be friends
Thu, August 11, 2005 - 8:17 PMbecause the the innocent girl i married in 1994 doesn't exist anymore. she didn't exist then, she was a reflection on a two-way mirror that converged on my soul at an intersection in time.
we can't be friends because there is no "we" and there never was.
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Re: why we can't be friends
Tue, August 23, 2005 - 4:56 PMI know, you probably meant well by emailing, to say hi or wish me well, but really...it IS just upsetting.
I fell in love with you and I'm trying to get over it. It will probably take a damn long time, since I really don't fall in love like this... well I guess that I do now, don't I?...but this has been such a complete disaster. The feelings aren't going away. I don't want to spend the rest of my life pining over someone who doesn't want me... I know that probably sounds insane...we really didn't even spend that much time together...but I think about you all the time...still... and to you, I know I was just a fling, a curiousity or whatever. No...I'm not really well, all is not well, but there's nothing YOU can do about it...short of being with me...and I don't see that happening, you've had plenty of chances...I've been fairly throwing myself at you for two years...and no, I don't mean just for a night every now and then...a friend with benefits...or someone to amuse you while you look for the One when we're not together...I don't want to watch you marry someone else..
I'm sorry...I don't want to hate you, but I don't see how I can possibly BE your friend. If you open the door a crack, I will try to push it open all the way...and it just hurts too much. It's really better if you just leave me alone so that I can move on.
Maybe I can find someone to love who will love me back...but first I have to forget about you...how can I if you won't go just away and leave me be? -
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Re: why we can't be friends
Wed, August 24, 2005 - 12:30 AMNow how could I resist... We cant be friends because you lie, cheat and steal. We cant be friends because I need to hate you to be free of you. We cant be friends because as much as i hate to admit it I loved you too much to just be friends with you. We not only cant be friends, we are doomed to be enemies. And you, the love of my life, created that. -
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Re: why we can't be friends
Wed, August 24, 2005 - 12:32 AMas if I had not cried enough today. I made myself cry again with that. FUCK!!!
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