I do'nt know if it would be worse for you to be cold and distant and even mean, than just being your regular loving self. I KNOW that's part of the problem for me...See it through my eyes for a sec:

I'm cruising along in this relationship with the guy I waited for all that time; in love; thinking about a future we've talked about many times...I've always had fear that you weren't as into the relationship as I am, but hey, you always set my fears to rest...and BOOM! Explosion! Big fat hole in my life, because all of a sudden you don't want to be in a relationship with me any more...You left me, except you didn't go anywhere...just changed the rules...I still see you every day, hug you, tell you I love you...you still say you love me too...You just "Don't want to have a relationship with me"...Nothing has changed for me, I'm still here, still in love with you...What is the secret for not hoping you'll see the value in this relationship and restructure it yet AGAIN? I know you're selfish, and really take care of yourself first and foremost...You jealously guard your right to isolate and obsess...I know that and I still love you. I think that that's what makes a good relationship, knowing the other person's deepest and darkest, and loving them anyway...

God, why did you carry on long enough to make me believe that this was IT? It would have been easy to let go at lots of other points along our path...I am SO fucked...I don't know if I will ever feel over this enough to have another relationship. I know I deserve love, I'm a really good girlfriend, with plenty of faults, sure, but loving and faithful and committed...and yet I'm afraid I'll never trust anyone enough to try again...I don't even WANT to try again...See? Fucked. I am in trouble, and there's no releif or help for it, just keep going on...Man, this sucks!!!